The loneliness of being last.

February 21Meditate the fiat of Jesus in the garden, how heavy would have to give blood sweat and sweat! So do you pronounce this fiat, both things prosperous and in adverse, and do not worry or break your head wondering how you pronounce it. It is known that in the difficult questions flees nature of the cross, but no one can say that the soul is not subject to the will of God, when we see it, despite the force felt against, put in practice.Want to have concrete evidence of how the will pronounce its fiat? Virtue is known by its opposite. Posted by the Lord in a trial, whether difficult or easy, tell me you feel driven to rebel against God? Or better, say for example the impossible: trying to rebel. O, tell me, do not you horrorizas to simply hear these phrases blasphemous? Well, between yes and no, there can not be, nothing in between.If your will flee the rebellion, rest assured it is subject, tacitly or explicitly, to the will of God, and therefore also its own way she utters her fiat.(January 30, 1915, to Raffaelina Cerase - Letters. II, p. 321)