That great mystery!

August 16
What I can tell you about me? I am a mystery to myself, and if resist, is because the good Lord has reserved the last and sure word to the authority of this land, so that there is no safer rule that the will and desire of the top. In this authority abandoned me as a child in the arms of the mother, and I hope and trust in God that I be mistaken, but my feeling leads me to believe the opposite.
Father, when the sun shine in the sky of my soul?Woe is me, I am lost in the high and deep night I go through. Prefer not to speak of this, it is unimportant to me, and all I crave is to come God to give me the final blow.
  (August 15, 1916, Fr Augustine of San Marco in Lamis - Ep. I, p. 798)